6.27.2011

crossing to BURMA

Well Sawatee Kaaaa everyone! What a busy little day we had here in Thailand. Today most of the group went up to Mae Sai because the teachers at DEPDC left the school to harvest the rice fields. Yep that's right. They all just LEFT. SO no one was at the school to take care of the 140 children left there during the day. Most of the group left at 6:40 in the morning and then Puya, Hudson, and I left at around 8:40 because I had to go to...Burma today. Yep. I have been here in Thailand ILLEGALLY for the past 3 days. I know right? LAST thing I wanted to do was get in trouble with the Thai government. I had no idea that when I went to Laos two weeks ago....it foreited my THAI visa (which was good for 60 days) and I had to start all over but they only gave me a VISA for 14 days. I had no idea. So technically my visa was up on June 24th...and every day that I am staying here in addition to that...I have to pay 500 baht every day. So today Hudson dropped me off at the border. SCARIEST THING EVER may I mind you. I always say...I love to travel. I do. It just so happens I am always traveling with someone else. Never have I been sent across a foreign border by myself where no one speaks a lick of English. My heart started to beat so fast and I started to sweat immediately upon crossing the border. I was SO nervous that I wouldn't be able to get back across to THailand and I would be stuck there and thrown into the Burmese prison never to be found again. I just followed this white man and when I found out he was from France, I asked him if he was planning on renewing his visa and going back to thailand right after. If he had those plans, I planned to follow him the entire time. Then I started seeing all these signs that said, "you MUST have 20,000 baht in hand when crossing the border". This is obviously to ensure that if something happens to you, you have the money to get yourself out of a bind, or perhaps JAIL BOND! I was so nervous. Luckily they did not ask me to show them any money. I was so relieved! I literally crossed the border as fast as I could. I was even too nervous to pull out my camera and take a couple photos because Burma apparently has no "freedom of press". I know videocameras are strictly forbidded in the country so I wasn't going to take any chances.

After crossing the border Hudson, Puya, and I went to lunch. Then the rest of the group picked us up in a sawng tow and we went to DEPDC. Krystal and I were in charge of the "glitter name tag" station. We had the kids make name tags and decorate it with "glitter". IT WAS A MESS! The kids were so cute though. I practically melted when little "SAM" decorated his name tag and then wrote "I + LOVE = YOU" on the bottom of his name tag and then gave it to me. These kids come from really hard backgrounds and they are at high risk for prostitution. Many cross the border from Burma every day to come to school because they have no other school to go to. DEPDC is losing 70 % of its funding from its major donors and so we are trying to come up with a plan for them to be able to be self sufficient. It's an on going process that will need to be finished once we are all gone from HELP. It was a nice day at DEPDC. It was crazy and hectic but it was fun to work with the kids. I love it when they come up to you at the end of the day and give you a big hug and look up at me and say, "kap kune kah". It makes it all worth it!

Back at the house, Puya, Amy, and I went walking to look for mangos. They bought a lot of them. They love the mangos here. Then we ordered Pizza and picked it up because it was Paul's birthday today. We had cake too. HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAUL! Tomorrow we are going up to DEPDC again to help out because the teachers will be gone again.

I got to skype with mom tonight. I sure do love and miss her. I also called my sweet little Grannie to let her know I was thinking of them. I am glad they are all having such a good time with the family there (from Japan). I sure love them all!

6.26.2011

te amo Chiang Rai

Sunday afternoon. ahhhh. So nice! Paul and I are in the internet cafe. I bought 13 hours worh of internet time (100 baht). Hopefully I wont lose my user ID and password this time like I did last time. Even though 100 baht is only $3.30 in US dollars....I shouldnt have lost my paper. Anyway, the rest of our group went to Chiang Mai this weekend. They left on Friday (around 2 pm) and are getting back some time today. It has been so nice to have some alone time. It gets crazy sometimes when you are constatly around the same 16 people. I think we get a new member to our group today. Apparently she is from India. Last night Paul, Puya, and I caught a sawng toah from the "cook your own meat buffet" place on the corner of our street and went to the Chiang Rai walking street, which is basically like the night bizarre, but goes on longer. They have everything there. We had already eaten and wished we hadn't when we stumbled upon the "food street" full of vendors selling anything you can imagine. Sweets, smoothies, squid, and even crickets! I took video footage of the LIVE crickets in a big glass tub that they scoop out and fry right in front of your face then serve to you. Been there...done that. We ate crickets and cockroaches last week at the night bizarre. I am in the internet cafe trying to find out information about Laos. Puya and I want to go to Luang Prubang, Loas next weekend. Sounds amazing from the research I have done so far! It's a little french town. Nestled between the Nam Khan and Mekong Rivers, Luang Prabang is one of the most charming and sophisticated cities in Southeast Asia. Streets are lined with French bistros, fancy restaurants, and expensive shops. It is quite the contrast of Northwest Laos it appears.

The city was formerly the capital of a the kingdom of Luang Prabang. It was the royal capital of the Kingdom of Laos until the communist takeover in 1975. Luang Prabang historically housed the Royal Family, has stunning temples, colonial mansions, and a distinct French influence.

We have to figure out the cost/logistics of the trip. Trying todecide wether to bus the ride or take a slow boat ( 2 day trip). We'll finalize everything tonight I hope.

Yester day Paul, Puya and I went hiking to a waterfall. It was called Khun Korn Waterfall. Our favorite driver, Karl, piked us up at the P- house at 9 am promptly, and we headed off. The drive up there was absolutely gorgeous. Khun Korn waterfall is approximately 27 kilometers from Chiangrai municipality. The scenery was so pretty as we drove rolling hills covered with green growth.

The 1 kilometer drive into the park area curves around up and down inclines. There was only one other car in the parking lot where we parked. The fragrance of the forest was so fresh and earthy because it had just rained. This wasn't any manicured, crisp looking garden but, as one expects, we walked through an isolated park surrounding the waterfall.

We walked up and down narrow pathways, sometimes at the edge of the river, and other times away from the rapids. Caterpillars crawled on the damp earth strewn with fallen leaves, and an ancient tree root provided the natural edge of a small waterfall tumbling down boulders. There was parade of ant/beedle looking insects that went on for a quarter of a mile it seemed like. All following the one in front of them in a orderly fashion. So intriguing! We passed a tree which was wrapped in a buddhist monk's orange robe. Paul says that means the tree has been blessed by the monk. There were isolated areas of bamboo like you wouldnt believe. I made the comparison to the game I played as a child, the one where you have a bunch of sticks poking through holes and you have to remove one stick at a time and try not to let the ball come down. Pictures could not preserve the prestine image that this bamboo provided. It was truly amazing!

WHen we got to the waterfall we decided to take "adam and eve leave" photos. You know...the photos where it looks like you are only being covered by leaves. We found the BIGGEST leaves you can imagine along the trail. Perfect for our "leaf outfits". We were really "one with nature", Puya, Paul, and I. The water felt amazing. The mist from the falls cascaded outward about 100 feet. It was so powerful and magestic looking. We swam under the fall and behind the rocks. What an incredible sensation! Puya accidently lost one of her flip flops and Paul ran down stream to try and fetch it. Although he was unable to find her blue and yellow berkley flip flop (ones she had purchased at the night bizarre to coordinate with her Berkley university school colors) he did in fact find a Thai CROCK! I say a "Thai" crock because they are made out of crock material but are in the shape of a furry wolf like animal. People wear them all around here. I have never seen them in the US. Paul saved the day! We love Paul! Such a good kid! SO instead of having to wrap up her foot in leaves or a towel (which she had planned to do), Puya was able to just wear her crock that Paul found her.

We got back to the house at around noon and I took a nap. I woke up a couple of hours later and Paul and I went to go get some lunch. He was craving curry and I didnt mind the sound of that either. It was raining pretty hard. We walked down the street until he settled on a chicken and rice place and I found somewhere that served green curry. It was delicious. Then we went to our favorite smoothie place and ordered a "strawberry, orange, pineapple" and a "lemon rasberry" smoothie and sat and talked about religion and relationships for a good hour and a half it seemed like. Paul has a good head on his shoulders. He also has a lot of faith. Something I need to work on. I was feeling somewhat overwelmed so I told Paul i was going to skip the internet cafe and go "meditate and pray". We had just watched, "EAT,PRAY, LOVE" the night before and I was hoping to have a little bit of a Liz Gilbert experience like she did in the beginning of her book. I hadn't prayed in a while so I thought I should. I am confused about some things in my life. I am confused about my relationship and what to do but I am trying not to worry. I am trying to just let everything happen as it should. Not that I beleive I should be completely passive and not "work for something" and be proactive- but there is no sense in worrying. I feel right now that when I get back from travleing- I should be home in Virginia for at least a semester. That is what I feel right now is best for me in my heart. I cannot say what is best for anyone else in their life. They need to follow their own hearts. But that is how I feel.

Puya commented that there really is no peffect "time table" in relationships. Ideally, there would be but it's ok to not know what to do at every moment. What's another semester going to hurt? I thought it would be detramental to our relationship but those were my words, not his.

Anyway, I went back to the house and just sat alone. It has been a good long while since I sat in silence, and alone. I offered up my feelings in prayer and just listened. I have been getting better at just sitting and listening since i have been in Thailand. When I first got here it was so difficult for me to sit still and not be actively doing something productive 24/7. With time, patience, life lessons, and controlled thinking, I have been able to practice the "art of doing nothing" as Liz Gilbert puts it so perfectly in her book.

12.06.2010

emotional


I just got out of my developmental sike class. We were covering cognitive and emotional development in late adulthood. For some reason i got very emotional and started crying during lecture...since i sit on the very front row...my teacher looked at me like i was crazy. I just started thinking about mom and how much i love her and how much i would miss her. Mostly i was thinking about how unselfish my mom is...how even though she is going through this...she STILL ALWAYS puts others first before herself. I just have so much love for her right now in my heart. She is such an inspiration to me. She always says, "im nothing special- youll understnad when you have kids one day". Maybe i will understand one day...but now while I dont have kids, and I am her daughter...not a day goes by that her attitude and optimism does not cease to amaze me. I love her!

12.01.2010

Im going to THAILAND






I just recieved notification that I got in to work in Thailand with HELP international, a non profit organization. The MISSION of HELP International is to empower people to fight global poverty through life-changing, sustainable development programs. I will be leaving in May and working all summer until August. I am beyond excited to be a part of this opportunity- my passion in life! http://www.help-international.org/ check it out!! I get excited even thinking about it. This is what I LOVE!!

4.29.2010







I graduated on Monday night! I wasn't really all that relieved because I still had 3 big boards to take before I could officially say I way DONE! I took my anestesia written and clinical today and passed!! What a relief! Now I just the biggest most stressful test of my life tomorrow at noon! I am so nervous- but trying to stay calm.